Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Autobiography.

Hello.
My name is Elizabeth Anne Foster. I was brought into the wonderful world on July 25, 1990 in Canmore, AB. My amazing mother raised me, alone, in Canmore for a year and some until we ventured back east where she was from. She then decided Quebec was not a province she wanted to stay in so we boogied back west. It wasn't until 1993 that we discovered the Columbia Valley, and fell in love. We both still reside here. Obviously my mums love for nature and outdoor activities kept her here. The mountains captivated her heart and this became home.

It wasn't until a year ago that I found the stronger side of myself. I fell into a hole three years ago. It could have been the break-up of my mum and step dad, the ignorance of this town, or my arrogance and conceitedness. It may have been all three. Nevertheless I am becoming stronger day by day and feeling happier with myself. I am overcoming things I thought impossible, and my mind is thinking more positively. I am beginning to understand who I am and where I belong. I know where I stand with myself and what I expect from others around me. I am tired of this town bringing gossip, and drama into my life and I am going to change it. I know that I am possible and I know that I have the straight and the support.

I have been with my boyfriend for 9 months now and it had definitely had it's ups and it's downs, but, personally, I have found this relationship has a lot more strengths than my previous one. We can express our feelings and we love each other for who we each are. He makes me feel like one in a million. Like a perfect person. To me, he IS perfect. We do our best to overcome every obstacle the world throws at us and we make the best out of every situation together. It's simply beautiful. We both are faithful, true, honest, and our communication between each other is wonderful. I couldn't have asked for a better person who tries so hard to make sure that this is going to work. I believe in relationships that both people need to put in as much effort at the other person. If one puts in more it's becomes off balance and that's where things start to wobble and become uneasy. It's like a teeter-totter. If someone weighs more than the other it won't work. In other words the more effort(weight) a person is putting in the more the teeter-totter is going to be tottering in their direction. A relationship is an amazing thing. It's having a best friend around always. Someone who will think the world of you and make you feel like the Eiffel tower when you feel like an ant. A relationship should not belittle you.

My mum is my guardian angel. Even though she isn't always around and she doesn't always know what I'm doing, I just know that she is always there watching me and guiding me. She is the most beautiful and gentle person I know. We have this super strong connection and I wouldn't trade it for the world. I feel bad for how I treated her when I was a teenager. It may be something that most teens do, but I shouldn't have. Sometimes I think back and wish I would have been more willing to listen and take in everything that she told me. Everything that she had said would happen has or is happening right now. Sometimes, though, maybe, it takes making mistakes before you do realize the truths. It's a shame that we can't just trust and believe what our parents have to say, since they are, for the most part, right. Though, also as i have gotten older, I have learned that we need to make mistakes and do wrong things in order to learn what hurts and what makes us strong. parents are the mountains that we look at each and every day. They had to start somewhere. They were not always strong and they went always big, capable, and they couldn't withstand the strong winds that life threw at them. Mothers are so amazing. Even if they aren't your birth mothers. They are strong, capable and willing to put "you" first. They are everything. A woman with such a strength deserves a lot, and you are everything to them. Prove your capability 'for they'll always be there.

My dad, he's not my "birth father" but as far as I know he is the father that made and forever will be. When my mum and I moved to BC things, in no doubt, were not easy. But she met an amazing man that changed my life FOREVER! He is known as, George Duncan Barr. In my eyes, the most amazing and strong willed man I've EVER known. My mother and I were living in "Dry Gulch. I don't remember much, 'nor which exact age or month that they met. I was only about 3. I do remember slight memories of me calling to ma, "hey mommy, George is here." Shortly after they moved in together and I began calling him my dad. As far as I know he is my dad, and a damn good one too. We definitely had our disagreements and struggles with our relationship and I think it was probably because he was too straight up about life and I didn't want to agree with him or admit that he was right. Now that I'm older I am starting to respect him and listen to everything that he suggests. I've learned that it was only for my better being. I wish that I saw him more than I do. Our schedules just don't work out very well together. I'm sure even with the lack of communication between us lately, I think we've actually become closer and better friends. I couldn't ask for any better of a father. He is hard working, strong willed and has a great sense of humour. He means everything to me.

Since high school to now I've learned so many things and realized that many things that I cared about in high school were practically meaningless and non of them really affected me now. Now I am twenty and I am so proud of myself. I've overcome so many struggles and obstacles and gone so far. I've grown up so much and used my mistakes to my advantage. I am happier than I have ever been and it is only getting better. I'm beginning to love life and realize what it has to offer me is in my control. Life only throws things at me that I let happen, and instead of wallowing in self-pity and becoming depressed I stand tall and get myself through it. If I put my mind to things I know I'll go far. Life, I've realized, is what we make it. If we decide it's going to be wonderful, it will turn out just that way.

3 comments:

  1. I like your blog, Beth!
    Nice writing.
    And you make me blush...

    Good insights!

    xo

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  2. Just wanted to drop by to say hello, as your mom posted about your blog. A beautiful text!

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